Life certainly has a funny way of showing me the way (wait, what is this sentence?! lol). Anyway, January feels like a marathon. I kept running and running – no time for catching a breath, even just for a moment. So I took a damn good rest on the first day of February. (YOU GO GIRL!)
But… taking a break on a Sunday could look like me ‘abandoning’ my responsibility. I know, I know, it’s sort of extreme, but that’s how my brain kinda works. And that being said, the pair comes in feeling overwhelmed and guilty. Not to mention, since my attentional space (the terms I got from the book ‘Hyperfocus’) is FULLY running on all the things I need to do and the guilt and the BAD scenarios – I feel even more tired than I should be.
Coming out of this cycle is kinda tricky. I’ve been in it too many times, but I feel lost again and again. Plus, knowing the fact that I’ve been doing well for the past month and all the other rational thoughts just wouldn’t easily ‘switch’ my mind. It’s kinda complicated. If you know, you know.
Well, anyway. This is in the evening already, and I try to move things up a bit. I opened my laptop and aimed to work on one or two things. And since I need something to SHUT UP my thoughts for a moment – I started with my journal. But the real question is: what’s with the title, then?
One of my many traits is that I like to rewatch shows or clips that I’m already familiar with, such as Friends, Big Bang Theory, Modern Family, and Detective Conan.
Just as I amstill juggling between my journal and my noisy thoughts, I decided to run one of BBT’s clips that showed up in my Youtube Homepage:
Without much thought on this matter, I clicked it. And you know what is the first clip?
Sheldon: “In 1935, Erwin Schrodinger, in an attempt to explain the Copenhagen interpretation of quantum physics, he proposed an experiment where a cat is placed in a box with a sealed vial of poison that will break open at a random time. Now, since no one knows when or if the poison has been released until the box is opened, the cat can be thought of as both alive and dead.
Penny: “I’m sorry. I don’t get the point. Of course you don’t get it. I haven’t made it yet.”
Sheldon: “You’d have to be psychic to get it. And there’s no such thing as psychic. Show them what’s the point. Just like Schroinger’s cat, your potential relationship with Leonard right now can be thought of as both good and bad. It is only by opening the box that you’ll find out which it is.”
This specific clip has a special place in my mind. It’s not exactly related to a relationship problem, but I put myself in doubt (and declare that I will lose) too many times, where what I should do is just try it! I even made a post about it back then and posted it and pinned it on my instagram profile!
Just a few seconds of that clip made me smile. It rewinds my worries and guilt – and here I am writing a blog post! If you were in any chance, feeling unsure about anything, just try it – give it a go! (of course this is a form of reminder for myself)
VERONICAKUDO 
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