Little things in life

To feel more alive.

In this fast-paced world with high demand on work and being on standby online to communicate with others, I realise that over time… I neglect my hobbies and my prized possession.

“Life can get you down, so I just numb the way it feels,” said Ed Sheeran in one of his songs.

The past few months have been… numb. The music I listened to just became background music. I was too tired to do my hobbies, and the endless cycle of doomscrolling is unhealthy. I limit my Instagram time usage, but I shamelessly move to YouTube. ugh!

But as we’re approaching the end of the year.. I declutter and rearrange my bookshelves, and well, basically my stuff in my room. Which, I realise, just now, as I’m writing down my journal, that I have this feeling that has long gone. Nothing major or something, but I feel warm and happy in a very subtle way (idk if this makes sense, but trying my best to describe the feelings haha).

I watered my gouache, which was looking like a dried river. I saw old receipts I got when I went for a hike to Batur. I went through my books that are collecting dust on the shelves. Read some of my old notes and found stuff that I had forgotten.

All that warms my heart.

What are the little things in life that keep you going?